So here it is… Day 10. let me tell you something for nothing. This last few week has been HELL.
I think I may have mentioned in earlier blogs that using NRT can actually lead to nightmares. This week I’ve woken up with some very vivid and however unrealistic, believable nightmares. But I haven’t woken up just the once, it’s been 3 or 4 times in the night – so I’m not sleeping. So that’s making me really irritable – Yesterday I was feeling so emotional that I could have listed a dozen irrational reasons why my perfectly fine relationship should end.
Not to mention the shite that is coming out of my lungs – You’d think I was smoking 40 a day for the state of my mouth in the morning!
The snapping at colleagues may have got a bit too far; I actually said to a colleague on the IT helpdesk “I don’t care how you do it, it’s now your problem – sort it out!”
I have to say though, that I haven’t missed a cigarette – I’ve just been quite unpleasant to be around. There are other things going on in my life though, that may have attributed to my somewhat erratic behaviour. My poor boyfriend probably doesn’t know if he’s coming or going at the moment.
So yesterday I removed my nicotine patch before I went to bed and I decided that I wasn’t going to wear one today – just to see how I’d get on, I’m now halfway though the day, I’ve used my Nicorette QuickMist 3 or 4 times today, but I seem to be using that more out of habit – hoping that it’ll improve my mood. it doesn’t haha – though even though yesterday was one of those days where I wanted the earth to swallow me whole, today I feel much better and this evening I’m going on a light jog to get myself back into the fitness that I’ve so clearly lost since October.